Its time for a change!

After getting in contact with Oliver, we talked and he agreed to let me stay with him for a few days. He was actually really happy I have finally decided to move to the big city with him. He was a little upset that I left the day after Valentines without any type of warming but after expressing to him how I felt he understood and said that we should just allow our relationship to grow naturally from here and if that means us being more than friends then Im going to let it flow. Ive packed up all my things and now all I need to do is turn in my keys and head to the bus station. As the bus pulls out of town we see the riots in the street while the buildings are burning down to the ground. Man, I can honestly say I am not going to miss anything about this strange crazy ass unexplainable event having ass town. BYE BYE PARKERS PLACE! BIG CITY HERE I COME!

No Money Springs Misery

You know, Spring is somewhat depressing I mean, it is for a stripper at least. During the winter, people want someone to cuddle up with. Guys are willing to pay that extra dollar for a little warmth if you know what I mean but DAMN. Now that theres a little sun light they want to act brand new on me. I gotta eat too. This is depressing like really tho. Im tired of having to depend on men to provide me with my needs. Nasty older men at that. They make me sick. I don't need this! Maybe I will go back to school. Get a degree or something. Im far from stupid so I could find a job and make some descent money doing something average people do. I haven't spoken to Oliver since I snuck out of his house on Valentines day but maybe I will give him a call. It would be great if I could move out of Parkers Place and stay with him for a few days while I get my life together.....Did I just see a flock of ducks walking down the sidewalk?!

O! love to me is but a season – Seldom does it overstay

O! love to me is but a season – Seldom does it overstay...Its the day after Valentines day and I wake up next to someone i have known forever but never thought I'd actually have any type of romantic relation with. I mean, yeah, the attraction between us has always existed but he has always been like a brother to me. Or maybe I was in denial about the fact that I am completely and totally head over hills in love with him. Ehhhhh, I wouldn't take it that far but the current circumstances as to where I am say that I do have feelings for him. I had sex with him!!! Oh my goodness! I had sex with Oliver! What have we done! OMG! Ive gotta get out of here before he wakes up! I Am just going to slowly creep out of bed, grab my belongings and get the hell out of here as fast as possible.  As I am on my way home I can not help but think about Me and Oliver I mean, what if this ruins our friendship or what if he never wants to talk to me again. I wonder if it was good. AGHHHHH! I can not help but panic about this. This was never supposed to happen. EVER! As I walk into my appartment I randomly remember that the movie theater will be showing "My Bloody Valentine" today. Hmmmm, maybe going to see a movie alone will help me to get Oliver off of my mind. 

Lonely but Fun

Oh My Goodness! What is wrong with the people at Happy Lucky Laundry? I knew I should have just stuck to washing my own damn clothes. Theres absolutely nothing I can do with jeans and shirts and hoodies that fit two sizes too small. Coffee sounds really great about now I think I will stop by the market to get that and a few other things, maybe a bottle of wine, or two, or four. I almost forgot it was snowing until walking outside and almost instantly freezing to death. I am going to add hot tea to my grocery list. As I walk into the grocery store I hear Mobius Evans on WPPK radio talking about a murder and a dead body that was found in town. Thats exactly what I wanted to hear today! I have got to get the hell out of Parkers Place before I end up dead somewhere. Can you imagine that, front page news reads "Young Parkers Place stripper found dead at the basketball court on Sweetwater Blvd"? How tragic! Anyways, I think the hardest decision I am willing to make about my life right now is whether I want Merlot or a Cabernet. Lets just get both! I got what I came here for and I get in the check out line and the lady working the register asks me if I had heard about the murder and the dead body that was found. I was shocked, most people around here make no effort nor show any interest in conversing with me. I told her I had and that I think its horrible, also to watch out for herself because I know damn well I will be watching out for my ass. Ill be damned if some one were to run up out of an alley and shank me. She laughed, handed me my purchases and told me that she thinks its interesting. Responding with a very calm,"What the hell" I then ask her why. Why is it interesting? People in big cities across the world are being killed every minute. That shit is not interesting, its scary and makes me want to stock up on pepper spray. Walking out of the grocery store slightly upset, I then remember that I do not have to work tonight. Oh Hell Yes! Im definitely getting drunk. Making it into the house safely, I change into more comfortable clothes and pop open the Cabernet, Tonight is going to be lonely but fun. Just have to think "lonely but fun". Damn, This is about to be one long night.